I did something today that I have not done since high school. I was cleaning and blasting my worship music ((which seems to be a daily and sometimes hourly occurrence these days)) when I was reminded of Pastor Dan and the beginning of the school year retreats we would take with F.A.C.A. These retreats were for the students and teachers to reconnect casually after a long summer but even more than that it was a way to bring us closer to God. We always took one day on the retreat and we would all have breakfast together then we would all go off separately and just let our Bibles fall open in our laps. Then we would read and pray and meditate over whatever passage God showed us. Today, I let my Bible fall open then walked off to get a bottled water. I came back to Daniel chapter 10 being open where Daniel has a vision by the Great River. As I was reading, I thought to myself “okay God…what are you showing me”? Then Daniel 10:17-19 practically leapt off the page and pretty much smacked me upside the head.
17. “For how can this servant of my lord talk with you, my lord? As for me, no strength remains in me now, nor is any breath left in me”. 18. Then again, the one having the likeness of man touched me and strengthened me. 19. And he said, “O man greatly beloved, fear not! Peace be to you be strong, yes, be strong”! So, when he spoke to me, I was strengthened, and I said, “Let my lord speak, for you have strengthened me”.
This resonated deep in my soul because truth be told, I am tired. Tired of this Covid, tired of waiting to move or not move, tired of remote learning, but more than that my soul is tired and some days I feel I just cannot continue. I will continue to worship and wait and pray. Thomas said, “I believe, help my unbelief”. And oh, I do believe with my whole heart and my fervent prayer is that you believe with everything you have and that when you are tired and weary, let your Bible fall open, talk with the Lord and He will give you strength ♥