The Miracle that Saved Me ((and when I finally Realized))

My miracle contains four fabulous fellas that are my world.  My husband, Will, and our 3 boys.  I first met Will when I was just sixteen ((ah youth)).  He was seventeen and I walked up to him and just started yapping his ear off and then threw him into a bush ((don’t ask)).  I asked him how it felt and he said “this is how it felt” and proceeded to throw me into the same bush! It was then that something clicked and I thought just maybe this guy could keep up with me and keep me sane.  So, we started dating and grew closer.  My home life by seventeen was not ideal for lots of reasons ((think wicked stepmother and step-siblings but it was not my Mom)).  And he rescued me from that situation and protected me.  We then got pregnant with our first son and so since we planned on being married anyway, the bells rang sooner and we wed before our sweet Will entered the world ((and we were just barely eighteen..what in the world))?? Yet, I was a buffoon and did not see the miracles I had before me and so I did some not so nice stuff and truth be told, my marriage is indeed from God and I believe that whole-heartedly.  We also welcomed into the world a Tobster and an Eli and our lives and hearts were fuller than ever.  Then, God tested my new-found faith and said “now that you have witnessed this miracle, it will be taken from you.” And I went, “but what? Why? How? No!” But after fighting and screaming and yelling, I gave it to God and said “I’m done” and left it, truly left it.  I drew closer to God and he restored unto me what had been lost and then ten-fold.  While I had drawn closer to God, it still was not enough.  Yes, I was more involved in church but I still was not saying to everyone far and wide “I am a Christian”.  It only took Covid and the loss of my Father to give me big smack upside my head and into my heart to say “ok…time to speak out and stand up…enough being lazy”.

 Things indeed are bleak-ish right now but instead of whining, I am celebrating the good.  I have a roof over my head, I have food in my fridge, I have clothes for my family, my husband is working, my Mom and In-Law’s are helping as much as they can, the boys are doing well in spite of being in remote school, and I am starting a new course in life…

In short, losing a miracle once was enough to get my attention.  Being made to slow down extremely and pay attention once is enough for me.  God is declaring his presence loud and clear my loves…if you would like to talk more please feel free to email me ♥

Published by Amanda-Lyn

I reside in the heart of New England with my 2 sons and my husband. My eldest son visits us frequently. When not in the office, I love to sing and to write and more than anything I love God and I follow Him truly truly ♥

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